Talked on the phone last night with someone I didn't know very well (and none of you know at all) about a mutual concern. We covered the topic and then proceeded to talk another half hour about -stuff - and got to know one another quite well. So much so that we felt as if we were long time friends. Now this is someone I may never meet, but it goes to show that interesting things can take place when you least expect it. No mystry ? here guys, just is what it is or was or whatever.
My dog needs food. What more can I say. Got to go buy some.
I despise Rodney King . Cause problems and then wonder why we can't all just get along.
Feeling low today. I'm not ready to cash it in just yet but I think I'll be glad when the game is over. I'll feel better later or tomorrow.
Found my sticks. Can't figure that out? Well I lost them and then I found out where they were. Therefore I found them. I wonder what that may mean to those who may read this? It was important to me.
Look up, research, evaluate, and apply said lesson learned by the governers race in Va. The tip of the turning tide? We can only hope.
All done
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
It's me again
Ok! Looks like most want no limit on spending for christmas, and that good for me to. Also we are to give to only one person or family. (That's the most important one for me) I made copies of the list so I'll make sure everyone here gets one and I'll send one to Matthew.
I've known all my life that you can't save anyone who dosen't want to be saved. Why then does it suprise me each and every time I re-realise this fact. It's just like a drownding victim - they will take you with them. Panic, fear, whatever? It's hard to face the fact that no one is going to save you but yourself. Someone used to tell me that I've spent my whole life taking care of everyone else, but they wondered , who was going to take care of me? I can answer that. So many people want but they don't want to give. They take but don't return. All this because you're a good guy and don't confront them. Sometimes the responsibility can be overwhelming. No one really looks inside. Most of the time, most things don't matter. Perhaps, for me, 99.9% of the time I just don't care. Others can have their way and feel good because I will feel just fine because I REALLY DON"T CARE. I've seen and done things that did matter a great deal but having a preference about dinner just dosen't hold a candle to some of that.
There is one thing that does scare me though; GIRLS - Big ones, little ones, old ones and young ones. With or without teeth, hair, brains,pretty or not so much. Couple that with being 60 and it's a scary world. Wish me luck!
I've known all my life that you can't save anyone who dosen't want to be saved. Why then does it suprise me each and every time I re-realise this fact. It's just like a drownding victim - they will take you with them. Panic, fear, whatever? It's hard to face the fact that no one is going to save you but yourself. Someone used to tell me that I've spent my whole life taking care of everyone else, but they wondered , who was going to take care of me? I can answer that. So many people want but they don't want to give. They take but don't return. All this because you're a good guy and don't confront them. Sometimes the responsibility can be overwhelming. No one really looks inside. Most of the time, most things don't matter. Perhaps, for me, 99.9% of the time I just don't care. Others can have their way and feel good because I will feel just fine because I REALLY DON"T CARE. I've seen and done things that did matter a great deal but having a preference about dinner just dosen't hold a candle to some of that.
There is one thing that does scare me though; GIRLS - Big ones, little ones, old ones and young ones. With or without teeth, hair, brains,pretty or not so much. Couple that with being 60 and it's a scary world. Wish me luck!
Friday, June 5, 2009
christmas
OK! I lost the gift rotation list. Need it and I hae a few thoughts on the subject. If we are going to do this, and I think it is a good idea, we really need to say that please give to only one person or family. If we can give to more than one some will feel bad because they may not be able to. Also, should we put a limit on the amount to spend? Some of us may be able to spend alot more than say the younger ones. If there is a limit then no one will feel bad. Please - these are only ideas but we need to decide and get the rules out to everyone. I don't want anyone to be left out or feel like they aren't doing enough.
DADDY
DADDY
Sunday, May 31, 2009
wandering mind
getting on or along - who cares? not today anyway. thursday morning early the phone rang. an RN I work with called to ask if she and her two children could stay here with us for a few days if needed. I told her she could. seems that her significant other told her to get out. that she and her bastard children could find their own way. (he is the father of one of the children) her other one's father dosen't even see or contact his child. she has made at least two bad choices in this regard . she's nice and really a good person but has this blind spot. she won't eat pork or shellfish but children out of wedlock is no problem. how strange is that? anyway she found another place on short notice. just as well but not really a problem. men are - well they are. I know I've made my mistakes to, but for anyone to abandon there children - what can you say.
not really up today but not sad either. sun, blue sky, quiet - prehaps pensive is the word. pesimestic about the future. not mine ,just in general. I think I want to hurt but that takes to much energy. guess I'll just have to smile and be happy. Hey now thats an idea. why don't we all be happy in spite of the world and life and jobs and people. be good and fair to others and keep the boys away from my daugthers. men are men but boys ( no matter their age) are truly the lowest of the low.
I think I just made my point.
love you all
ps: will I get more than 2 comments?
not really up today but not sad either. sun, blue sky, quiet - prehaps pensive is the word. pesimestic about the future. not mine ,just in general. I think I want to hurt but that takes to much energy. guess I'll just have to smile and be happy. Hey now thats an idea. why don't we all be happy in spite of the world and life and jobs and people. be good and fair to others and keep the boys away from my daugthers. men are men but boys ( no matter their age) are truly the lowest of the low.
I think I just made my point.
love you all
ps: will I get more than 2 comments?
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Jennifer's friend, Lore, got me thinking about what I might like for by birthday. (I remember my 40th) A few years past that I'm afraid.
If you can bring yourselfs to it I would like a .338 Lapoua by Barrett (only $5,000-small price to pay to start the revolution with) New truck - yes ! Girlfriend might be nice. (one with slightly supressed violence - revolution remember) Oh well; Nice card and love will be good also. I've been an old soul all my life but seem to be getting younger the older I get. HUH? The problem with that is deciding if I'm developing senile tendencies or evolving into what I should have been all along. Better late than never. (hope that dosen't upset the creation crowd - evolving and all)
Time and an open mind imparts the skill which helps one see through all the garbage that surrounds us all day long. Youth is often a time of real soft mind; the brain latches on to all kinds of junk that sounds good but truly has no substance. On top of which it is anti humanity. We are meant to excell and overcome while helping other to do the same. It dosen't matter how long it takes to get there just as long as you do. Get there that is. We have guides such as faith, laws, but the first rule should be, as it is the medical profession, first do no harm. Then you can go ahead.
Isn't it strange how we take offence when none is intended? Ask yourself why? Should huh? We all do it. Then we dismiss another's position. Make us feel superior then we deny that we are superior and then pretend that we are above all that kind of behavior. We all do it! I'm trying to do it less. If I can do that and lose 40 pounds I'll be better than ever. Maybe better than everyone else. There I go again - being subhuman once more. Long haul folks!
Have you ever noticed how people rally just before they pass away? My thinking at work is very sharp. Better than in years. If this will last just seven more years then I won't have to think about anesthesia any more. Unless I'm being anesthetised. Then I pray that person was trained by someone smarter than me. No arrogance intended (I do make mistakes) but I'm pretty damm smart. I also know who's smarter. Got to be some kind of wisdom in that.
MICHAEL THE WISE! oops - human again - sorry but it just slips out
If push comes to shove I could always go back to being catholic and become a priest. Might be good at that. Forgiving sin and all. Being feared by one and all cuz of being so close to GOD. Instant respect that is conferred by those sort of positions. It would take a while for anyone to figure out it was a priest starting the revolution with his birthday gift given to him by his children.
Have a nice day!
If you can bring yourselfs to it I would like a .338 Lapoua by Barrett (only $5,000-small price to pay to start the revolution with) New truck - yes ! Girlfriend might be nice. (one with slightly supressed violence - revolution remember) Oh well; Nice card and love will be good also. I've been an old soul all my life but seem to be getting younger the older I get. HUH? The problem with that is deciding if I'm developing senile tendencies or evolving into what I should have been all along. Better late than never. (hope that dosen't upset the creation crowd - evolving and all)
Time and an open mind imparts the skill which helps one see through all the garbage that surrounds us all day long. Youth is often a time of real soft mind; the brain latches on to all kinds of junk that sounds good but truly has no substance. On top of which it is anti humanity. We are meant to excell and overcome while helping other to do the same. It dosen't matter how long it takes to get there just as long as you do. Get there that is. We have guides such as faith, laws, but the first rule should be, as it is the medical profession, first do no harm. Then you can go ahead.
Isn't it strange how we take offence when none is intended? Ask yourself why? Should huh? We all do it. Then we dismiss another's position. Make us feel superior then we deny that we are superior and then pretend that we are above all that kind of behavior. We all do it! I'm trying to do it less. If I can do that and lose 40 pounds I'll be better than ever. Maybe better than everyone else. There I go again - being subhuman once more. Long haul folks!
Have you ever noticed how people rally just before they pass away? My thinking at work is very sharp. Better than in years. If this will last just seven more years then I won't have to think about anesthesia any more. Unless I'm being anesthetised. Then I pray that person was trained by someone smarter than me. No arrogance intended (I do make mistakes) but I'm pretty damm smart. I also know who's smarter. Got to be some kind of wisdom in that.
MICHAEL THE WISE! oops - human again - sorry but it just slips out
If push comes to shove I could always go back to being catholic and become a priest. Might be good at that. Forgiving sin and all. Being feared by one and all cuz of being so close to GOD. Instant respect that is conferred by those sort of positions. It would take a while for anyone to figure out it was a priest starting the revolution with his birthday gift given to him by his children.
Have a nice day!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
my my---if you wonder why I don't blog more it's cause people dont read it or don't comment. except for one or rarely two. we'll see.
a twin grandpaw! something else! I know melissa and heath are stuned-er I mean happy. these are the days my friend.(like the song says)
bryan and eli will be home from coll. this week so here goes another summer. off to a start. only this year there will be work to do. no laying around all day and eating or watching tv. my food bill jumps 100% this time of year so this summer I plan to get my monies worth. sorry kids!
It looks like many of you won't be getting even average health care in the not to distant future what with obama health care reform. I've said this for years and it now will come to pass. there will be rationing of care and services. some of you will be denied services because you will be to old, with no regard for your current quality of life. now don't mistake what I'm saying. I don't believe in prolonging life for even hours let alone days or weeks just because you can. If there is no hope of a viable,sustainable or quality of life acceptable to the patient then it's time to let go. Don't you dare keep me around just to exist on a ventilator or in a vegitative state. I don't want to be a brain in a dead body or brain dead in a live body. now thats not to hard to understand or accept, but this is the bad part. Study history! mentaly challenged humans will be denied care. cardiovascular patients over a certain age will be denied care. renal patients will be denied care. palitive care for terminal patients will be reduced and or denied. The list will grow. not all will take place at once but over time. you will see it. and remember to thank your current pres. and members of congress. It's allready happening on a small scale..medicare? medicade each and every day. I'll be dead and gone but I'll still hear you say that I was right.
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES ON HIS WORD ALONE WOULD REPLACE A PRIVITE INDUSTURY CEO. OUR FOUNDING FATHERS ARE ROLLING AROUND IN THERE GRAVES
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT A HIGH GOVERNMENT OFFICIAL - SEC. OF HOMELAND SECURITY WOULD IMPLY THAT A WORLD WIDE CHRISTIAN FAITH AND ALL IT'S MEMBERS WERE RIGHT WING TERRORISTS
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT THIS PERSON WOULD LABLE MILITARY VETS. AS TERRORISTS.
YOU KNEW MY FATHER-YOUR GRAND FATHER- I KNOW HE IS ROLLING OVER IN HIS GRAVE. MY MOTHER SERVED IN WWII - WAS SHE ONE ALSO?
IF YOU THINK SHE SAID THESE THINGS WITHOUT THE KNOWLEDE OF THE PRESIDENT YOU ARE MORE BLIND THAN I COULD EVER IMIGINE
WELCOME TO THE SOCIALIST REPUBLIC OF THE UNITIED STATES
a twin grandpaw! something else! I know melissa and heath are stuned-er I mean happy. these are the days my friend.(like the song says)
bryan and eli will be home from coll. this week so here goes another summer. off to a start. only this year there will be work to do. no laying around all day and eating or watching tv. my food bill jumps 100% this time of year so this summer I plan to get my monies worth. sorry kids!
It looks like many of you won't be getting even average health care in the not to distant future what with obama health care reform. I've said this for years and it now will come to pass. there will be rationing of care and services. some of you will be denied services because you will be to old, with no regard for your current quality of life. now don't mistake what I'm saying. I don't believe in prolonging life for even hours let alone days or weeks just because you can. If there is no hope of a viable,sustainable or quality of life acceptable to the patient then it's time to let go. Don't you dare keep me around just to exist on a ventilator or in a vegitative state. I don't want to be a brain in a dead body or brain dead in a live body. now thats not to hard to understand or accept, but this is the bad part. Study history! mentaly challenged humans will be denied care. cardiovascular patients over a certain age will be denied care. renal patients will be denied care. palitive care for terminal patients will be reduced and or denied. The list will grow. not all will take place at once but over time. you will see it. and remember to thank your current pres. and members of congress. It's allready happening on a small scale..medicare? medicade each and every day. I'll be dead and gone but I'll still hear you say that I was right.
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES ON HIS WORD ALONE WOULD REPLACE A PRIVITE INDUSTURY CEO. OUR FOUNDING FATHERS ARE ROLLING AROUND IN THERE GRAVES
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT A HIGH GOVERNMENT OFFICIAL - SEC. OF HOMELAND SECURITY WOULD IMPLY THAT A WORLD WIDE CHRISTIAN FAITH AND ALL IT'S MEMBERS WERE RIGHT WING TERRORISTS
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT THIS PERSON WOULD LABLE MILITARY VETS. AS TERRORISTS.
YOU KNEW MY FATHER-YOUR GRAND FATHER- I KNOW HE IS ROLLING OVER IN HIS GRAVE. MY MOTHER SERVED IN WWII - WAS SHE ONE ALSO?
IF YOU THINK SHE SAID THESE THINGS WITHOUT THE KNOWLEDE OF THE PRESIDENT YOU ARE MORE BLIND THAN I COULD EVER IMIGINE
WELCOME TO THE SOCIALIST REPUBLIC OF THE UNITIED STATES
Sunday, March 22, 2009
once in a while
I've kept up 'somewhat with the thoughts of othersfor a while. Everyone knows that I don't write much, or blog much. Calling is easiest for me . I get bogged down in conversation after I say what I want to say. Not that I'm tired of anyone but there's not anything left to say. Everyone is home for spring break. Sort of a full house again. Things to do and no one to do it but me. Seems like that's my whole reason for living.
Have you ever noticed that everyone has an opinion. They are not willing to share and then let you go your way. They want their position to be the one adopted. And if it is, that's still not enough for them. They don't care about you so much as their self rightous opinion. We have developed a culture of conditioned acceptence. You are accepted only on our conditions. This seems to hold true for individuals, systems, organisations both organized and loosely nit.
I've spent a lot of time driving around just to have something to when I can't stand being alone. I've noticed the street walkers on central. (You drive around enough and the same girls keep getting into different cars It's a good bet they aren't Salvation Army workers) Anyway, these are called whores or crack whores. No middle ground. The dredges of society. Anyone ever think that maybe they have an extra mouth or two to feed at home and no one to help them and this is the only way they can keep it together? Not the bet of choices but maybe the only one they have at the time. (OK folks now's the time for the hipocracy to ooze out. God can't really love them can he. After all we don't. Want to help? Take a whore shopping.
Andrea had a homeless man she would give food to when she could. Sat there with him while he ate. Truly the pure love of christ. I'm proud of that.
My point is wide rangeing. Multiple applications. There is enough evil in the world to destroy us. Stop creating more. Instead of creating more pain; instead of passing judgement (note- I didn't say makeing a judgement) and casting aside people because you decided or believe or were told you are better, try doing what you know to be the good thing to do . MEN TELL YOU TO CAST ASIDE PEOPLE - NOT GOD- HE DOSEN'T RANT AND RAVE- HIS LESSONS ARE QUITE AND HUMANE
And for those who are self assured and comfortable and who have complicated, and affected your 's and other lives and have left victims lying around. Well there is always a price to pay.
Have you ever noticed that everyone has an opinion. They are not willing to share and then let you go your way. They want their position to be the one adopted. And if it is, that's still not enough for them. They don't care about you so much as their self rightous opinion. We have developed a culture of conditioned acceptence. You are accepted only on our conditions. This seems to hold true for individuals, systems, organisations both organized and loosely nit.
I've spent a lot of time driving around just to have something to when I can't stand being alone. I've noticed the street walkers on central. (You drive around enough and the same girls keep getting into different cars It's a good bet they aren't Salvation Army workers) Anyway, these are called whores or crack whores. No middle ground. The dredges of society. Anyone ever think that maybe they have an extra mouth or two to feed at home and no one to help them and this is the only way they can keep it together? Not the bet of choices but maybe the only one they have at the time. (OK folks now's the time for the hipocracy to ooze out. God can't really love them can he. After all we don't. Want to help? Take a whore shopping.
Andrea had a homeless man she would give food to when she could. Sat there with him while he ate. Truly the pure love of christ. I'm proud of that.
My point is wide rangeing. Multiple applications. There is enough evil in the world to destroy us. Stop creating more. Instead of creating more pain; instead of passing judgement (note- I didn't say makeing a judgement) and casting aside people because you decided or believe or were told you are better, try doing what you know to be the good thing to do . MEN TELL YOU TO CAST ASIDE PEOPLE - NOT GOD- HE DOSEN'T RANT AND RAVE- HIS LESSONS ARE QUITE AND HUMANE
And for those who are self assured and comfortable and who have complicated, and affected your 's and other lives and have left victims lying around. Well there is always a price to pay.
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