hey I'm just here

more??????????????????

ok . here I am posting more. haven't heard from matthew since may 20. I hope he learns someday how hard this is on me not to hear very often.

christina and clifford, ava and harley were here this afternoon for burgers and fries. the power went out in the storm so it was just burgers. oh well you can't have everything.

I am very touched by the support of the people at our church re: matthew. they always ask about him and never seem to stop praying for us and him. the more I experince I have with "real" people the less need or want I have for the others. no matter how bad the world gets the good folks will still be around and there for your uplifting.

Got a new cell phone yesterday. old one died. new one to complicated. got to read the book. can't anyone make a phone that just answers and calls. why does it have to be so hard?

OK NOW! THREE STAGES OF LIFE ACCORDING TO ME

1. SURE I'D GO BACK AND DO IT ALL AGAIN

2. SURE I'D GO BACK AND DO IT ALL AGAIN IF I COULD KNOW WHAT I KNOW NOW

3. I'M NOT GOING BACK FOR ANY REASON I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH

Now don't get the wrong idea. I'm not ready to go but it's also true that I don't want to go back.

How's that for a post

daddy

FINALLY ?

ok so I'm lazy bout writing

glad matthew is alive and at least commucating (?) huh! with someone. we will continue to pray but that just dosen't stop me from wakeing up at one or two and being afraid and sad and angry all at the same time.

oh well such is life in any lane not just the fast lane.

thanks for all the intercommacation (?) HUH!!! during this time ... love and support do rank high on the love you list

daddy

getting older and random thoughts

today was a lazy day. I went to the store (you know there really shouldn't be an e at the end of stor) and got what I wanted for stuffed manicotti (?) covered with alfredo and mushrooms. mom is makeing stuffed srooms and a salad.

matthew was here last night and so was christina and cliff and ava. andreaand jimmie and jimmies three children. they were all delightful but tristen may well turn into quite a chess player.

i have to go get the girls soon. that means that i have to go to work tomorrow. don't want to. oh well, ijt's just another day.

I miss my parents.

again?

ok here we are . just a room full of strangers. (old song but i can't remember the next line. my honey tels me that i have to write on all these blogs and you know how hard it is for me.

so while mama is puten on makeup so we can go out for a while I'll lay down a line or two. not so hard a work day but still busy. i picked up the grils - thats girls-(but what about all the grils in the world?) we went to get matthew (he goes by matt but not to me. it will always be matthew)but they wanted him to stay another hour or so. so he will come over tomorrow evening.

you have got to see how hershey reacts with the birds.

whitesnake

If you remembere what whitesnake is -was- then you should know what the title really is. will this count as progress? Two times on a blog; OH MY!!!

this is a call weekend for me so I'm not in a great mood. I hope everyone is doing well. with evesryone's life progressing so fast it gets harder to keep track. My worst fears have come true. time passes and children grow up and they grow up up and away. I miss you but please don't think I want all of you to move back home. just visit often.

little miss amanda is considering the miss lakeside contest. beauty queen? heaven help us all.

love you

ok - now what?

kicking and screaming into the electronic,internet age. even after all these many years most of this is news to me. all I want in a cell phone is one that can answer and place calls. I want to turn on my TV and watch it, not answer my phone with it or write a letter or talk to someone else. and now I have to relearn to type in order to communicate. (I like the phone or face to face)

so ok honey and kids -----I'M ON